Because I have grown up knowing that the holiday season is very family-orientated.. and ya’know, my family isn’t very close at all. And so I sometimes spend it with friends families or traveling between seeing my mum and my dad and maybe one of my brothers. But this year nobody really wants to do anything except my brother, Dean. Which is good, because he is rad. But sad at the same time because I see all of my friends having these massive family dinners and I just don’t have that opportunity..

Also, I hate that gift-giving so often becomes an obligation. and I feel like if somebody buys me a Christmas present of some value, then if I don’t give them a gift of a similar value I somehow don’t love them enough, or vice-versa.

But at the same time I love getting the people who I care greatly about presents, because I think so hard about what they would love to receive and when they open it and get all happy that makes me happy..

Christmas is a confusing time of year for me.